“You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth”
It’s been a difficult week for us and I will probably write about it at a later point, but Amy has lost her daddy last weekend and blogging has quite frankly been the last thing on my mind. As Amy also had surgery this week to sort out her hearing problems and constant ear infections, she is still unaware of what happened.
Amy’s daddy and I haven’t been together for a long time and they haven’t seen each other for over 2 years but Amy talked about her daddy all the time and I know she loved him dearly – just like he loved her. Keeping this from her has been incredibly difficult and while some people might not understand why I am doing it in the first place, I think my reasons are valid. I simply want Amy to make a full recovering before turning her world upside down. Coping with the death of a loved one is hard enough when you’re healthy. I don’t want her to have to cope with physical pain on top of the emotional pain she’ll have to go through.
Ben’s death came as a massive shock to everyone who has known him and I am determined to keep Amy’s memories of him alive and also record new ones even more so than I have in the past. If this week has taught me one thing, it is that life can end so quickly and unexpectedly and I want Amy to be able to look back on as much of our life as possible which is why despite everything, I’m sharing this weekly photo with you.
It was taken on Monday and she won the 800m race for her age group for the second time in a row. She ran it for the first time last year and she was determined to run it again this year, despite going into hospital for surgery two days later. She’s so determined and she loves sports, just like her daddy. I know he was immensely proud of her and having passed on his passion of sports. He always joked ‘She’s got the best of both of us: My sportiness and your brains’…